I love the idea that I am giving to another creature. The hummingbirds are so frail but hardly meek. They are characters and exhibit a social order. And, when I give to them by feeding them the sugar water solution I feel joy. They somehow are symbols of joy as well. And as part of this process, I secretly believe that since I am so selfishly just giving to other creatures, that somehow the good karma or benefits of my act will return to me. But, I don't think about it that much.
I love the hummingbirds as I feed them and watch them come up. I still have the orange ones chasing away many of the other hummingbirds. Sometimes, I'm a bit ashamed to admit, I throw rocks at the aggressive orange ones. But I know that my aim is poor and the birds reflexes and speed will well protect from the possibility of actually being hit. Again, I yearn for a return to an abundant feeder where all of the hummingbirds come up together and dance and share like a festival for hummingbirds.